I would love to stop time
Take Father Time's hour glass and turn it completely sideways so the sand will stop falling
Even if it can only be for a moment
Wouldn't that be nice?
What would you do if you could stop time?
Would you if you could?
I would wanna stop time to spend time with the ones I love
Especially with the one I love most
Just to be held in their arms and never be let go
To relax and breathe
To get done all I need to get done
All I want to get done
I would write more
Finish my novel
I would develop my talents
Gain more confidence
Gain it in others and myself
If I could stop time I would learn new skills
I would learn to cook and bake and not mess up
If I could stop time I would take a step back and look at the beauty of the world
I would travel it
To England, Australia, and Alaska
I would observe the things I love to look at
Fish, art, and stars
I would take times to look at the little things
To appreciate them
To make them the big things
If I could stop time I would create myself
Because life isn't about finding yourself it is about CREATING yourself
I would adjust my life so I can be who I want to be fully
I would take the time to be truly happy
To fell it
To find it
If I could stop time I would do the impossible
I would take a walk in space and dance on the stars
I would swim with the fish in the sea
Without scuba gear
I would talk to people
Say the things I have always wanted to say to them
If I could stop time I would stop school
So none of us ever have to come back
And if I couldn't stop school
I would steal the answers to things
So I can pass and graduate
If I could stop time I would never grow up
I would find my inner child
I would find my Neverland
I would play
I would draw with chalk
And get all messy
I wish I could stop time
Stop it forever
Go off to my own world
And never come back
Because coming back would mean time would start again
And I am afraid of reality
And what life has in store for me
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Ordinary World
Ifs....
I sit in school for seven hours a day. Then go home and go to work for another 3-7 hours. when i am not in school or at work i watch tv and stalk on facebook and text. I am 18 waiting to move out of my house. Waiting for something to change. Waiting for my life to being. Just waiting, wanting. But what if that all changed? What if i got married at this age? If my mom finally understood me. If i got off my lazy butt and did homework. If i could be happy for more than a few moments at a time. If i got more than 1 A.If i had confidence in myself. When i graduate.If i stopped pleasing peole. If i turned into a vampire :P If I finally stood up to everyone i have something to say to. If someone close to me died. If my best friend kissed me..... Never mind that is to weird. IF the internal conflict would stop. If my novel got published. If i lost my legs. If I bleed till i almost died. If i never talked again...
But then agian these are all ifs....
Ifs that will probably never come to pass. I sit and dont take actions
One day I decied to take the action of doing something about my life and change it. I stood up for myself. Stopped being a people pleaser. I tell off my boss and my friend. Tell them everything on my mind.
How did the boss react?
How did the friend react?
Who will I stand up to next?
I sit in school for seven hours a day. Then go home and go to work for another 3-7 hours. when i am not in school or at work i watch tv and stalk on facebook and text. I am 18 waiting to move out of my house. Waiting for something to change. Waiting for my life to being. Just waiting, wanting. But what if that all changed? What if i got married at this age? If my mom finally understood me. If i got off my lazy butt and did homework. If i could be happy for more than a few moments at a time. If i got more than 1 A.If i had confidence in myself. When i graduate.If i stopped pleasing peole. If i turned into a vampire :P If I finally stood up to everyone i have something to say to. If someone close to me died. If my best friend kissed me..... Never mind that is to weird. IF the internal conflict would stop. If my novel got published. If i lost my legs. If I bleed till i almost died. If i never talked again...
But then agian these are all ifs....
Ifs that will probably never come to pass. I sit and dont take actions
One day I decied to take the action of doing something about my life and change it. I stood up for myself. Stopped being a people pleaser. I tell off my boss and my friend. Tell them everything on my mind.
How did the boss react?
How did the friend react?
Who will I stand up to next?
Gandhi
Easter sunday, a car, an open road, a radio turned on to loud.
A round-about, a girl, a button
Drving, 25 MPH
This is the sence for a car accident. Don't see it? Let me explain it. The girl we will call her Lucy.
She keeps forgetting to turn off her radio. Especially on sunday mornings. The night before she was out late and really didnt care. She was on her way to a farewell. She got ready and was so excited for the events of her day. Her mom was gone out of town. She was her own free women. She felt so great! Felt great to be free from her owner her mom. but will she ever own herself completly?
She goes to get in her car after getting all ready. In a cute new easter outfit ready for the day. She turned the key and the first thing she heard was the radio balring loud. but of course she didnt care. She pulled out of her drive way and went. She let the radio keep going. But of course with it being sunday she felt bad when she heard a word she really didnt like. So she turned it down. Then she came up to the roundabout. when she was exiting she decied just to turn the radio off. She couldnt find the button so she looked down for a little bit and for those three seconds. Before she knew it she was on the curb hitting trees and whatever else was in her way. She lost control. After her car finally stoped. Lucy was in shock. People who were behind her got out of their cars to help her. She then went to go calm down and wash her hands. While this was happening the police were called. She was in a little store, she ran into some friends. They came out to help her. After calming down she tried called her mom. no answer her mom was on a plane. Then her dad. no answer he was in church. So she had her friends and she called the first person that popped into her head. We will call him Jake. Jake quickly showed up and helped her deal with the police and all the reports to fill out. the police and everyone left and She looked at her car. The front smashed... both tires smashed. She wanted to cry but she held it in. He took Lucy home. And she lost it. She cried into his shoulder for an hour. She couldnt take the emotional pain. He then took her to his house because she didnt want to be alone. While there she realized it was not the last time she would see the light and everything would be ok.
Note: so i know this is a little different then everyone else has written it but this is how i wanted to hope you enjoy
A round-about, a girl, a button
Drving, 25 MPH
This is the sence for a car accident. Don't see it? Let me explain it. The girl we will call her Lucy.
She keeps forgetting to turn off her radio. Especially on sunday mornings. The night before she was out late and really didnt care. She was on her way to a farewell. She got ready and was so excited for the events of her day. Her mom was gone out of town. She was her own free women. She felt so great! Felt great to be free from her owner her mom. but will she ever own herself completly?
She goes to get in her car after getting all ready. In a cute new easter outfit ready for the day. She turned the key and the first thing she heard was the radio balring loud. but of course she didnt care. She pulled out of her drive way and went. She let the radio keep going. But of course with it being sunday she felt bad when she heard a word she really didnt like. So she turned it down. Then she came up to the roundabout. when she was exiting she decied just to turn the radio off. She couldnt find the button so she looked down for a little bit and for those three seconds. Before she knew it she was on the curb hitting trees and whatever else was in her way. She lost control. After her car finally stoped. Lucy was in shock. People who were behind her got out of their cars to help her. She then went to go calm down and wash her hands. While this was happening the police were called. She was in a little store, she ran into some friends. They came out to help her. After calming down she tried called her mom. no answer her mom was on a plane. Then her dad. no answer he was in church. So she had her friends and she called the first person that popped into her head. We will call him Jake. Jake quickly showed up and helped her deal with the police and all the reports to fill out. the police and everyone left and She looked at her car. The front smashed... both tires smashed. She wanted to cry but she held it in. He took Lucy home. And she lost it. She cried into his shoulder for an hour. She couldnt take the emotional pain. He then took her to his house because she didnt want to be alone. While there she realized it was not the last time she would see the light and everything would be ok.
Note: so i know this is a little different then everyone else has written it but this is how i wanted to hope you enjoy
Shake the Dust
This is for the broken heart, the one that hurts so bad it barley beats. This is for the girls who want to be great moms, for the boys who dont want to be just like their dads. This is for the girls who get abused by their boyfriends, for the boys who do so. Shake the dust. This is for the students who don't pass their AP test, but try anyway. This is for the people who are emotionally tramatized, becasue they went through something to hard to handle. This is for the peole who have wished on 11:11, shooting stars, and eyelashes. Shake the dust. The is for the people with no hope. For the loners who walk alone. For the depressed, the stressed, the tired. For those who call out to God with all their might to help. Shake the dust. This is for those who will step on toes to achive something. For those who will help anyone and expect nothing in return. This is for those who dont believe. For those who paretns are split. for those who cry themselves to sleep. Shake the dust. This is for those who dont think they can ever achive their dreams. For those who think they will never find love. For those who have. This is for those who sing at the top of their lungs in their car, but are to afraid to sing in from of people. Shake the dust. This is for those who are lost. This is for those looking for a real life fairy tale. Shake the dust.
Do soemthing different and shake the dust.
Do soemthing different and shake the dust.
ready for the lamest sixer ever?????
LIFE IS LIFE, LIVE WITH IT!
Plz enjoy hehe
I did this becasue i am a slacker :P
Plz enjoy hehe
I did this becasue i am a slacker :P
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Blurbs....that is fun to say hehe :D
Speak Now: Taylor Swift
As Taylor realizes that she loves a boy, she does to his wedding, more like sneaks in. She sees all the wedding stuff going on. Then she day dreams that she objects the wedding and they run away together. As the wedding goes on she has to hide because she wasnt invited. She watches the wedding. what is going to happen when the preacher really says speak now or forever hold your peace? Will she follow her heart or hide in the curtains forever?
Halloween: Rent
As Mark realizes that he doesnt know how his life is going. everyone of his friends who were like his family are leaving. Angel has died. He is trying to figure out why everything has happend. He is afraid to be alone. So he needs to stand up to his friends. So will he stand up for what he believes in or will he stay alone forever?
A Little Bit Longer: Jonas Brothers
As a boy works through some health problems. The Dr. Tells him he has to stay. He thinks that a little bit longer and he will be just fine. As he sits in a hospital he waits on his cure. They can't find it. He is figuring out that people dont know what it is like to be so close to death. He has hope to hold on and he will be fine. So will he be ok? Or will the hospital be his death place?
Invisible: Taylor Swift
Taylor is in love with a boy. She believes she is more perfect for him then his girlfriend. But she just watches from a distance. To him she is invisible. He sees right through her. She thinks they are perfect. As she watches from afar she notices that the girl doesnt notice all his good qualities. She wants to be his so bad. She thinks they would be perfect. So will she always watch from afar or go up and talk to him?
Already Gone: Kelly Clarkson
As Kelly is going through a break up with a boy. She is letting him know that he is the best thing that has ever happened to her. But she wants him to move on so she leaves. everything started good. and then it all ended. Becasue things went bad. So will she go back to him or stay away forever?
As Taylor realizes that she loves a boy, she does to his wedding, more like sneaks in. She sees all the wedding stuff going on. Then she day dreams that she objects the wedding and they run away together. As the wedding goes on she has to hide because she wasnt invited. She watches the wedding. what is going to happen when the preacher really says speak now or forever hold your peace? Will she follow her heart or hide in the curtains forever?
Halloween: Rent
As Mark realizes that he doesnt know how his life is going. everyone of his friends who were like his family are leaving. Angel has died. He is trying to figure out why everything has happend. He is afraid to be alone. So he needs to stand up to his friends. So will he stand up for what he believes in or will he stay alone forever?
A Little Bit Longer: Jonas Brothers
As a boy works through some health problems. The Dr. Tells him he has to stay. He thinks that a little bit longer and he will be just fine. As he sits in a hospital he waits on his cure. They can't find it. He is figuring out that people dont know what it is like to be so close to death. He has hope to hold on and he will be fine. So will he be ok? Or will the hospital be his death place?
Invisible: Taylor Swift
Taylor is in love with a boy. She believes she is more perfect for him then his girlfriend. But she just watches from a distance. To him she is invisible. He sees right through her. She thinks they are perfect. As she watches from afar she notices that the girl doesnt notice all his good qualities. She wants to be his so bad. She thinks they would be perfect. So will she always watch from afar or go up and talk to him?
Already Gone: Kelly Clarkson
As Kelly is going through a break up with a boy. She is letting him know that he is the best thing that has ever happened to her. But she wants him to move on so she leaves. everything started good. and then it all ended. Becasue things went bad. So will she go back to him or stay away forever?
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Story Songs
Song: I'm Still Here, Goo Goo Dolls
Lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/im-still-here-lyrics-goo-goo-dolls.html
Plot: He is telling someone he is not living by their rules. He wants to be his own person. He has been living by others peoples rules forever and wants to break free. Everyone wants him to change but he doesnt want to. He wants to show the world who he really is. He is living his own dreams. He wants to feel real. He wants to do all the stuff he never got to and find a place that makes him happy. Even if he shows the world who he truly is, He is still there.
Character: The character is a boy. Who wants to be someone different than everyone is making him become. He is breaking free.
Conflict: The conflict I think is that he is finally breaking free and realizing people cant run his life. He is standing up to the man. Telling them they dont know who he really is.
Theme: Telling people who you really are, and not being something someone wants you to be just be yourself
Setting: I see the setting as at first he stands up to the man. Like he is standing up to his dad. A teenage boy. Int he setting of the world and his own home.
Song: Someone's Watching Over Me, Hilary Duff
Lyrics :http://www.metrolyrics.com/someones-watching-over-me-lyrics-hilary-duff.html
Plot: It talks about a girl (i'm guessing) that finds her self and realizes life is more than just a bunch of crap. She realizes that it doesnt matter what life throws at her she will make it through because she has someone watching over. She is telling herself she wont give up.If she is standing alone she wont even budge because she has someone watching over her. she doesnt have to worry anymore. she can handle and everything will be ok. She can do it!
Character: A girl who realizes what life is about and that someone watches over her to make sure she is alright
Conflict: It seemed like she didnt know where to go in life. that her conflict was herself. Then she realized that everything was all good.
Theme: That no matter what we shouldnt worry becasue someone is watching over us.
Setting: This confuses me but probably just a normal high schooler taking care of stress or something just like now.... (setting confuses me still sorry if it doesnt make sense....)
I hope that is how it was supposed to look haha i was confused....kinda
Lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/im-still-here-lyrics-goo-goo-dolls.html
Plot: He is telling someone he is not living by their rules. He wants to be his own person. He has been living by others peoples rules forever and wants to break free. Everyone wants him to change but he doesnt want to. He wants to show the world who he really is. He is living his own dreams. He wants to feel real. He wants to do all the stuff he never got to and find a place that makes him happy. Even if he shows the world who he truly is, He is still there.
Character: The character is a boy. Who wants to be someone different than everyone is making him become. He is breaking free.
Conflict: The conflict I think is that he is finally breaking free and realizing people cant run his life. He is standing up to the man. Telling them they dont know who he really is.
Theme: Telling people who you really are, and not being something someone wants you to be just be yourself
Setting: I see the setting as at first he stands up to the man. Like he is standing up to his dad. A teenage boy. Int he setting of the world and his own home.
Song: Someone's Watching Over Me, Hilary Duff
Lyrics :http://www.metrolyrics.com/someones-watching-over-me-lyrics-hilary-duff.html
Plot: It talks about a girl (i'm guessing) that finds her self and realizes life is more than just a bunch of crap. She realizes that it doesnt matter what life throws at her she will make it through because she has someone watching over. She is telling herself she wont give up.If she is standing alone she wont even budge because she has someone watching over her. she doesnt have to worry anymore. she can handle and everything will be ok. She can do it!
Character: A girl who realizes what life is about and that someone watches over her to make sure she is alright
Conflict: It seemed like she didnt know where to go in life. that her conflict was herself. Then she realized that everything was all good.
Theme: That no matter what we shouldnt worry becasue someone is watching over us.
Setting: This confuses me but probably just a normal high schooler taking care of stress or something just like now.... (setting confuses me still sorry if it doesnt make sense....)
I hope that is how it was supposed to look haha i was confused....kinda
Monday, March 28, 2011
Jealousy
P.S.
By: Jewel
I wrote those nice
poems only becasue
the honest ones
would frighten you
I wish I could wrote only four lines and have so much come out of it. I am jealous that she just says it how it is! I have to beat around the bush. She writes truth and it is amazing how inspiring it is! I write nice poems for people cuz i dont wanna depress them with the truth. This is just so inpiring and i wish i could be just as good as a writer. In fact i am jealous of all her poems. She is an excellent writer! one day i hope to be as good as she is! there isnt really anymore i have to write on this fact.... so yeah
By: Jewel
I wrote those nice
poems only becasue
the honest ones
would frighten you
I wish I could wrote only four lines and have so much come out of it. I am jealous that she just says it how it is! I have to beat around the bush. She writes truth and it is amazing how inspiring it is! I write nice poems for people cuz i dont wanna depress them with the truth. This is just so inpiring and i wish i could be just as good as a writer. In fact i am jealous of all her poems. She is an excellent writer! one day i hope to be as good as she is! there isnt really anymore i have to write on this fact.... so yeah
Thursday, March 24, 2011
The Crush
She saw him for the first time that summer night. To her he was cute but she let go because she knew she would never see him again. She made a fool of herself not caring what he or others thought because she knew she would never see him again. The rest of that summer came and went and she never saw him once. Then the next journey in her life began. She saw him once or twice. She saw him a lot when he was with the people she knew. And yet she still thought he was cute. Then on her journey came a bump in the road. People left her. Alone. Afraid. Not know what to do she ran up to the first person she thought of. A girl whom she barely knew. She asked that girl one simple question. That day he was there. And she still thought he was cute. Their friendship grew, her emotions let go. They talked more. She now saw him all the time and yet she still thought her was cute. People kept telling her they were perfect for each other. But he was unsure. So she backed off and was his friend. Now, it has been years. They are still friends and yet, she still thinks he is cute. They play, they laugh, they sing. There are inseparable. Two words defy them form everyone else. People still tell them they are perfect for each other, she shrugs it off and pretends to be disgusted. She hides it all, bottles it inside. So much that sometimes she gets sick. She wants to tell him how she feels, but those two words hold her back. It could all be ruined. All they worked up to be. The trust. The very thing they are. It is hard for her to hide it all, but she pulls it off. She doesn’t know how, but she does. The mask she hides behind when she is with him is thick. What does she say? She will remain; nothing. She is by his side every step of the way. She will never leave him. He runs to her in the hall for hugs. He says he has no feelings, but she is not so sure. She won’t tell him till the time is right, now is not that time. Those two words will always reamin. She will always have him and he will always have her. They don’t wanna lose one another. One day, it might happen, but for now she will hide behind that mask, waiting for the time. Yet, she still and always will think he is cute
Authors Note:
This my friends is the first poem i ever wrote! it is about a friend and stuff she went through. cool huh haha :P but i hope you enjoy! tell me what you think!
Authors Note:
This my friends is the first poem i ever wrote! it is about a friend and stuff she went through. cool huh haha :P but i hope you enjoy! tell me what you think!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
GOSH DARN IT!!!! I HAVE SOME THINGS TO SAY!!!
I am tired! I am so freaking tired I am ready to punch a wall.... and I have to write i freaking thing about complaints! Gosh!!! ok well here is all the things i am tired of.
I am tired of my sister making me mad on purpose
I am tired of getting in trouble for stuff i didn't do
I am tired of my mom being stressed out at me over nothing
I am tired of school
I am tired of AP psych
Heck i am so tired of that class i fall asleep in it everytime!
I am tired of stupid teachers who think they can demean our intellegence and treat us like 3rd graders
I am tired of my friends making me solve there problems for them
I am tired of my boss
I am DONE with work
I am tired of my home
I am tired of disapointing people
I am tired of getting 0-4 hours of sleep every night
I am tired of being upset
I am tired of crying myself to sleep
I am tired of them not noticing
I am tired of coughing
I am tired of them worrying about me i am fine so they dont need to
I am tired of being nagged
I am tired of not spending time with my special someone
I am tired of failing
I am tired of my friends ditching me
I am tired of falling and no one is there to catch me or help me back up
I am tired of hurting so much
I am just tired.....
SO DONT BUG ME!!!!!
I am tired of my sister making me mad on purpose
I am tired of getting in trouble for stuff i didn't do
I am tired of my mom being stressed out at me over nothing
I am tired of school
I am tired of AP psych
Heck i am so tired of that class i fall asleep in it everytime!
I am tired of stupid teachers who think they can demean our intellegence and treat us like 3rd graders
I am tired of my friends making me solve there problems for them
I am tired of my boss
I am DONE with work
I am tired of my home
I am tired of disapointing people
I am tired of getting 0-4 hours of sleep every night
I am tired of being upset
I am tired of crying myself to sleep
I am tired of them not noticing
I am tired of coughing
I am tired of them worrying about me i am fine so they dont need to
I am tired of being nagged
I am tired of not spending time with my special someone
I am tired of failing
I am tired of my friends ditching me
I am tired of falling and no one is there to catch me or help me back up
I am tired of hurting so much
I am just tired.....
SO DONT BUG ME!!!!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
My Book I am writing!
ok so I am writing a book. And it is coming along ok. I have the beginning done and the end is almost done and I have bits and pieces of the middle.
So a quick summary of the book is.
There is a girl named Erika and she is a dancer. Her mom died of cancer when she was little and her dad is in the army. So they move alot. And she hates it. She has two older brothers who are twins (AJ and CJ) She hates them too. She basically hates life. She contunies dancing only becasue it was her mothers dream so she feels as if she has to continue to the dream. So it is her sr year of highschool and they just moved to Conneticut. She is not happy. She goes through a bunch of crap and then meets a friend Lucy. They get in a car accident. Lucy dies and Erika lives. Erika suffers now from a broken pelivis, a broken leg, and damage all over her body. She can't dance again. She is devistated. And it is basically about how she goes throughout life.
So I had a movie magic moment about two months ago. It was a saturday and I was not being a happy camper, becasue my friends who I would make plans with kept ditching me. I was not happy at all becasue this would happene with everyone. So yeah I walked outside and looked up at the sky and the second I looked up at the sky it started to snow. I swear I almost cried. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen ever!!! so i decieded to put something like that in my book so I did. As the end. It is not finished but I am going to put what I have :] hope you enjoy!
Note: This is still a first draft. Therefore I do not put anything in paragraphs. If you dont like it live with it. And it is also not all the way done so if it cuts off sorry! also first draft it is going to be messy and might not make sense in places.
I was in bed all day. I hadn't been to school since the last time I had that talk with Nick. Two weeks. I just couldn't handle school or people anymore. It was to much for me. The stares I got from people. I just couldn't do it. So I went back to sitting in a bed all day. Today was a bit different though. CJ and AJ were being super nice. They got home from school and came and carried me downstiars. They put me in my wheel chair and wheeled me outside. When we got out there I looked up and started crying. The sky was covered in grey clouds and snow was falling. It was the most beautiful thing I had seen in a long time. I had never seen snow like this. It was amazing. A flake hit my cheek and it felt like a little baby kiss that melted on my face. "Thank you." I said out of my teary sound. My brothers have never done something like this for me ever. It amazed me! "Your welcome Erika we thought you would like it." AJ said in a tone that was not his normal joking tone. HE said it very sincerly. I turned around to see my brothers faces. They were crying. I had never once felt colser to my brothers that I did now. We were all staring up at the sky now. It was silent, as the happy tears fell down our faces. I usually perferd rain but today I perferd snow. "Erika if you ever need anything you can always come to us. I know we haven't been the nicest to you in the past, but we were thinking about it and if you would have died in that accident we wouldn't know what to do. We love you." When CJ said this he was bawling. I looked up at him. "CJ I know thank you. YOu guys are the greatest people I know. I was always worried about not having friends and being alone. But I should have never worried about that, becasue I should have known I always have you two." The tears were freezing to my cheeks, like ice cicles. But I didn't care to much, I had the two best people right by me sharrig this special moment with me. Right now I didn't care about Nick or any of the kids at school. All I cared for was this moment, this moment in my life. This was the perfect way to end an emotional day.
That is all I am going to share with you right now! I do have more and if you guys like it then I will post more! plz plz pzl let me know what you think!!! this is the ending and i have really high hopes of getting this published!!! and if you have ideas for titles for this let me know too!!! thanks!!!
So a quick summary of the book is.
There is a girl named Erika and she is a dancer. Her mom died of cancer when she was little and her dad is in the army. So they move alot. And she hates it. She has two older brothers who are twins (AJ and CJ) She hates them too. She basically hates life. She contunies dancing only becasue it was her mothers dream so she feels as if she has to continue to the dream. So it is her sr year of highschool and they just moved to Conneticut. She is not happy. She goes through a bunch of crap and then meets a friend Lucy. They get in a car accident. Lucy dies and Erika lives. Erika suffers now from a broken pelivis, a broken leg, and damage all over her body. She can't dance again. She is devistated. And it is basically about how she goes throughout life.
So I had a movie magic moment about two months ago. It was a saturday and I was not being a happy camper, becasue my friends who I would make plans with kept ditching me. I was not happy at all becasue this would happene with everyone. So yeah I walked outside and looked up at the sky and the second I looked up at the sky it started to snow. I swear I almost cried. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen ever!!! so i decieded to put something like that in my book so I did. As the end. It is not finished but I am going to put what I have :] hope you enjoy!
Note: This is still a first draft. Therefore I do not put anything in paragraphs. If you dont like it live with it. And it is also not all the way done so if it cuts off sorry! also first draft it is going to be messy and might not make sense in places.
I was in bed all day. I hadn't been to school since the last time I had that talk with Nick. Two weeks. I just couldn't handle school or people anymore. It was to much for me. The stares I got from people. I just couldn't do it. So I went back to sitting in a bed all day. Today was a bit different though. CJ and AJ were being super nice. They got home from school and came and carried me downstiars. They put me in my wheel chair and wheeled me outside. When we got out there I looked up and started crying. The sky was covered in grey clouds and snow was falling. It was the most beautiful thing I had seen in a long time. I had never seen snow like this. It was amazing. A flake hit my cheek and it felt like a little baby kiss that melted on my face. "Thank you." I said out of my teary sound. My brothers have never done something like this for me ever. It amazed me! "Your welcome Erika we thought you would like it." AJ said in a tone that was not his normal joking tone. HE said it very sincerly. I turned around to see my brothers faces. They were crying. I had never once felt colser to my brothers that I did now. We were all staring up at the sky now. It was silent, as the happy tears fell down our faces. I usually perferd rain but today I perferd snow. "Erika if you ever need anything you can always come to us. I know we haven't been the nicest to you in the past, but we were thinking about it and if you would have died in that accident we wouldn't know what to do. We love you." When CJ said this he was bawling. I looked up at him. "CJ I know thank you. YOu guys are the greatest people I know. I was always worried about not having friends and being alone. But I should have never worried about that, becasue I should have known I always have you two." The tears were freezing to my cheeks, like ice cicles. But I didn't care to much, I had the two best people right by me sharrig this special moment with me. Right now I didn't care about Nick or any of the kids at school. All I cared for was this moment, this moment in my life. This was the perfect way to end an emotional day.
That is all I am going to share with you right now! I do have more and if you guys like it then I will post more! plz plz pzl let me know what you think!!! this is the ending and i have really high hopes of getting this published!!! and if you have ideas for titles for this let me know too!!! thanks!!!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Love Is....
Love is putting your arm around me
Love is wearing your jacket
Love is hugging you on my front step
Love is Undefinable
Love is when you look me in the eyes
Love is kissing you in the school parking lot
Love is having late night texting conversations
Love is having a two person thought train
Love is writing with the best pen ever
Love is dancing ever so close to you
Love is talking for six hours and feeling like only one has past
Love is happiness
Love is singing at the top of you lungs while driving down an empty highway
Love is skipping school
Love is taking long drvies
Love is taking long walks in the rain
Love is you holding me
Love is my head on your shoulder
Love is letting your emotions fly free
Love is caring so much about one single thing
Love is trying on the perfect shirt
Love is crying yourself to sleep
Love is having someone think about you
Love is holding a new born
Love is coloring in a coloring book
Love is when your necklace clamp is in the front
Love is making a wish at 11:11
Love is holding your hand
Love is keeping each other warm
Love is violently shivering for two hours
Love is catching them when they fall
Love is a song playing in an empty room
Love is floating away
Love is waking up late
Love is unconditional
Love is forgetting you lines
Love is listening with nothing to say
Love is rain pouring down
Love is pounding out all your emotions on the piano after a really bad day
Love is Love
Love is thinking of you
Love is smelling you smell
Love is wearing your favorite pair of shoes
Love is acting childish
Love is talking to yourself
Love is failing a test
Love is having a migrain
Love is listening to songs that remind me of you
Love is hurting so much
Love is writing till your fingers bleed
Love is crying till your eyes burn
Love is saying 'I love you'
Love is being so sick you can't stand
Love is something you can't explain
Love is weird
BUT I LOVE IT!!!!
Authors Note: So there it is from a person who used to hate love too... hope you enjoy! tell me waht you think :)
Love is wearing your jacket
Love is hugging you on my front step
Love is Undefinable
Love is when you look me in the eyes
Love is kissing you in the school parking lot
Love is having late night texting conversations
Love is having a two person thought train
Love is writing with the best pen ever
Love is dancing ever so close to you
Love is talking for six hours and feeling like only one has past
Love is happiness
Love is singing at the top of you lungs while driving down an empty highway
Love is skipping school
Love is taking long drvies
Love is taking long walks in the rain
Love is you holding me
Love is my head on your shoulder
Love is letting your emotions fly free
Love is caring so much about one single thing
Love is trying on the perfect shirt
Love is crying yourself to sleep
Love is having someone think about you
Love is holding a new born
Love is coloring in a coloring book
Love is when your necklace clamp is in the front
Love is making a wish at 11:11
Love is holding your hand
Love is keeping each other warm
Love is violently shivering for two hours
Love is catching them when they fall
Love is a song playing in an empty room
Love is floating away
Love is waking up late
Love is unconditional
Love is forgetting you lines
Love is listening with nothing to say
Love is rain pouring down
Love is pounding out all your emotions on the piano after a really bad day
Love is Love
Love is thinking of you
Love is smelling you smell
Love is wearing your favorite pair of shoes
Love is acting childish
Love is talking to yourself
Love is failing a test
Love is having a migrain
Love is listening to songs that remind me of you
Love is hurting so much
Love is writing till your fingers bleed
Love is crying till your eyes burn
Love is saying 'I love you'
Love is being so sick you can't stand
Love is something you can't explain
Love is weird
BUT I LOVE IT!!!!
Authors Note: So there it is from a person who used to hate love too... hope you enjoy! tell me waht you think :)
Monday, March 7, 2011
Finding My Neverland
People always ask me when will you grow up
I don't know how to answer so I just walk away
Everyday I get funny looks becasue of my childish acts
I look at those people and break inside
A kind of breaking where my systems shut down
It is a heart breaking feeling
Then I start thinking, wondering about if I really do need to grow up
Change me and be someone different
I breakdown and cry sometimes
Then I realize I have the key to the door
The door to my Neverland
Neverland a place where no one has to grow up
A place where you can always be yourself
A place where you can have no worries
It is not anyone elses Neverland it is mine
I know I can always be happy there
I can sing dance and play with no worries
Everyone is friends, no one makes fun of one another
It is a place that is under lock and key in the back of my mind
There so no one outside can enter in
It is my place
My Neverland
A place where all life is beautiful
Everyone lives to the fullest of their potential
Everyone is here not to grow up
To have the childhood they have always wanted
Everyone is happy
There is no emptyness at all
No overpowering feeling but happiness
Everywhere you go in Neverland you have a friend
NO one has to worry here
No anxiety
No depression
No emptyness
No fear
No heartbreak
Nothing but happiness and love in my Neverland
I don't have to grow up ever
I am perfect the way I am
Always young at heart
but sooner or later I have to walk out the door
The door in my mind and lock it up
I don't want anyone to enter in and destroy it all
So I walk out and go out in the real world once more
And take the critisim
The hate
The looks
Bottle it all up inside me until my cup is full
When that time comes and I am sad once more
I go unlock the door to my Neverland again
And enter into a place like none other
The place I wanna stay forever
It breaks my heart that I can't
An escaping place in my mind
It is mine forever
My own little place
For no one else but me
MY NEVERLAND!
Authors Note:
I got the idea to write this fter i watch finding neverland with my friend. This poem is based off of life experiences. It came from my heart. It came from my feelings. I really believe that everyone has their own Neverland. So i dedicate this poem to everyone who feels alone and lost, who doesn;t know where to turn. It took me months to write this. It was hard to write. to get the wording right. I had alot of writers block. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let my ture feelings out to the world. So here it is for people to read! HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!
I don't know how to answer so I just walk away
Everyday I get funny looks becasue of my childish acts
I look at those people and break inside
A kind of breaking where my systems shut down
It is a heart breaking feeling
Then I start thinking, wondering about if I really do need to grow up
Change me and be someone different
I breakdown and cry sometimes
Then I realize I have the key to the door
The door to my Neverland
Neverland a place where no one has to grow up
A place where you can always be yourself
A place where you can have no worries
It is not anyone elses Neverland it is mine
I know I can always be happy there
I can sing dance and play with no worries
Everyone is friends, no one makes fun of one another
It is a place that is under lock and key in the back of my mind
There so no one outside can enter in
It is my place
My Neverland
A place where all life is beautiful
Everyone lives to the fullest of their potential
Everyone is here not to grow up
To have the childhood they have always wanted
Everyone is happy
There is no emptyness at all
No overpowering feeling but happiness
Everywhere you go in Neverland you have a friend
NO one has to worry here
No anxiety
No depression
No emptyness
No fear
No heartbreak
Nothing but happiness and love in my Neverland
I don't have to grow up ever
I am perfect the way I am
Always young at heart
but sooner or later I have to walk out the door
The door in my mind and lock it up
I don't want anyone to enter in and destroy it all
So I walk out and go out in the real world once more
And take the critisim
The hate
The looks
Bottle it all up inside me until my cup is full
When that time comes and I am sad once more
I go unlock the door to my Neverland again
And enter into a place like none other
The place I wanna stay forever
It breaks my heart that I can't
An escaping place in my mind
It is mine forever
My own little place
For no one else but me
MY NEVERLAND!
Authors Note:
I got the idea to write this fter i watch finding neverland with my friend. This poem is based off of life experiences. It came from my heart. It came from my feelings. I really believe that everyone has their own Neverland. So i dedicate this poem to everyone who feels alone and lost, who doesn;t know where to turn. It took me months to write this. It was hard to write. to get the wording right. I had alot of writers block. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let my ture feelings out to the world. So here it is for people to read! HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
My Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I walk alone, I walk alone
The sky is dark, the wind is rapidly blowing, but no rain
I walk alone, I walk alone
My boulevard of broken dreams
No one knows it is here but me
In the middle of the empty street there is a piano
I get excited becuse i know I can play it for hope
Even if it is a little hope
I sti down to play
It doesn't play, the piano is broken
I walk alone, I walk alone
An abandoned dance studio
One of the many broken crumbled buildings on the street
The windows are broken
I go to look inside
The mirrors are shattered, the floor torn up
A pair of toe shoes lie in the middle of the floor
Black, ripped, frayed
I walk alone, I walk alone
I turn around to look at the rest of the broken road
I see you
You're just standing there
I start to walk towards you
Finally thinking that there will be no more broken dreams
But you walk away
Walk away and disapear in the darkness
I walk alone, I walk alone
Papers blowing around in the wind
I grab one the write on it
They disapear in a puff of smoke
No writing here on my boulevard of broken dreams
I walk alone, I walk alone
No one here
Everyone gone
I am alone on this lonley road
I am literally left here to walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone
I'm here alone, I'm here alone
I'm left alone, I'm left alone
I'm here left to walk alone
On my Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Authors note:
Ok so this was super hard to write, but i just really truthfully wanna know what you guys think! thanks!
The sky is dark, the wind is rapidly blowing, but no rain
I walk alone, I walk alone
My boulevard of broken dreams
No one knows it is here but me
In the middle of the empty street there is a piano
I get excited becuse i know I can play it for hope
Even if it is a little hope
I sti down to play
It doesn't play, the piano is broken
I walk alone, I walk alone
An abandoned dance studio
One of the many broken crumbled buildings on the street
The windows are broken
I go to look inside
The mirrors are shattered, the floor torn up
A pair of toe shoes lie in the middle of the floor
Black, ripped, frayed
I walk alone, I walk alone
I turn around to look at the rest of the broken road
I see you
You're just standing there
I start to walk towards you
Finally thinking that there will be no more broken dreams
But you walk away
Walk away and disapear in the darkness
I walk alone, I walk alone
Papers blowing around in the wind
I grab one the write on it
They disapear in a puff of smoke
No writing here on my boulevard of broken dreams
I walk alone, I walk alone
No one here
Everyone gone
I am alone on this lonley road
I am literally left here to walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone
I'm here alone, I'm here alone
I'm left alone, I'm left alone
I'm here left to walk alone
On my Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Authors note:
Ok so this was super hard to write, but i just really truthfully wanna know what you guys think! thanks!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Happiness
What is happiness
What does it really mean
Does it mean we have a smile on our faces
Ot is it something more
What makes people happy
What makes me happy
Happiness is
Dancing all my emotions out
Dancing till I have no more energy
Dancing in the rain
Dancing spastically
Dancing like there is no tomorrow
Happiness it
Writing poems
Writing stories
Writing nonsense
Hapiness is
Hugging my mom
Hugging my sister
Hugging my nieces
Hugging my nephews
Hugging my best friends
Hugging the ones I love the most
Hugging in general
Happiness is
Watching movies
Watching TV
Watching the rain fall
Watching the snow fall
Watching the night come
Watching people dance
Happiness is
Singing songs
Singing with my sister
Singing for people
Singing really bad XD
Happiness is
Drinking Dr. Pepper
Eating Macaroni and Cheese
Drinking milk
Eating cold cereal
Happiness is
Smiling
Happiness is
Talking to people
Helping people
Texting people
Happiness is
Seeing others happy
Seeing a baby smile
Hearing a baby laugh
Happiness is all this to me and more
This is what happiness means to me
What does happiness mean to you?
Authors Note:
Ok so I came to the realization the other day that I really only write poems when I am feeling down. I havent felt down in like 1 1/2 2 months now. So I really didn't write any. I was talking to someone and they were trying to help me find something to write about when I was happy. So I decided to write a poem about what happiness is to me. So I was listening to the song Happiness is from: You're a Good Man Charlie Brown and it inspired the writing format from this poem. Hence all the happiness is. So yeah I hope you enjoy it!
What does it really mean
Does it mean we have a smile on our faces
Ot is it something more
What makes people happy
What makes me happy
Happiness is
Dancing all my emotions out
Dancing till I have no more energy
Dancing in the rain
Dancing spastically
Dancing like there is no tomorrow
Happiness it
Writing poems
Writing stories
Writing nonsense
Hapiness is
Hugging my mom
Hugging my sister
Hugging my nieces
Hugging my nephews
Hugging my best friends
Hugging the ones I love the most
Hugging in general
Happiness is
Watching movies
Watching TV
Watching the rain fall
Watching the snow fall
Watching the night come
Watching people dance
Happiness is
Singing songs
Singing with my sister
Singing for people
Singing really bad XD
Happiness is
Drinking Dr. Pepper
Eating Macaroni and Cheese
Drinking milk
Eating cold cereal
Happiness is
Smiling
Happiness is
Talking to people
Helping people
Texting people
Happiness is
Seeing others happy
Seeing a baby smile
Hearing a baby laugh
Happiness is all this to me and more
This is what happiness means to me
What does happiness mean to you?
Authors Note:
Ok so I came to the realization the other day that I really only write poems when I am feeling down. I havent felt down in like 1 1/2 2 months now. So I really didn't write any. I was talking to someone and they were trying to help me find something to write about when I was happy. So I decided to write a poem about what happiness is to me. So I was listening to the song Happiness is from: You're a Good Man Charlie Brown and it inspired the writing format from this poem. Hence all the happiness is. So yeah I hope you enjoy it!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Scars
Scars
A word which can mean so many things
You can have scars in so many places
They all stories to go with them
You show then to everyone so they can be amazed with them
But there are always the one people can't see
The ones on your heart and soul
No one know they are there but you
They are from heartbreak, failure, and disapointment
After someone hurts you the wound is created
You are sad for a short period
Then the scar is made
The scar that will remain there forever
There is nothing you can do to get rid of it
The hidden scars
You only know that they are there
Where they came from
Who gave them to you
It makes it sore when you or think about the person
Then you find the one who you think will take the scars away
But they are always there
You open up to the person and show them the scars on your heart and soul
Now they know they are there
They do all they can to help you
Then you notice they have scars too
Everyone has hidden scars
Everyone has been broken
It is one simularity all humans have
It binds everyone together
Scars
One simple word
A word that means so much but also binds the world together
It brings everyone together in a special sense
No one knows
but everyone can relate
Something so sad and so great
Everyone has been hurt by something they thought they would have
Have forever
But instead it was replaced
Replaced with a scar
Sacrs
Break hurt torment
Scars
On the heart and soul forever
Authors Note: I love to write poerty so this is one I wrote and I think most people can realate tell me what you think! Also this is one of my not so good poems heh.... :P
A word which can mean so many things
You can have scars in so many places
They all stories to go with them
You show then to everyone so they can be amazed with them
But there are always the one people can't see
The ones on your heart and soul
No one know they are there but you
They are from heartbreak, failure, and disapointment
After someone hurts you the wound is created
You are sad for a short period
Then the scar is made
The scar that will remain there forever
There is nothing you can do to get rid of it
The hidden scars
You only know that they are there
Where they came from
Who gave them to you
It makes it sore when you or think about the person
Then you find the one who you think will take the scars away
But they are always there
You open up to the person and show them the scars on your heart and soul
Now they know they are there
They do all they can to help you
Then you notice they have scars too
Everyone has hidden scars
Everyone has been broken
It is one simularity all humans have
It binds everyone together
Scars
One simple word
A word that means so much but also binds the world together
It brings everyone together in a special sense
No one knows
but everyone can relate
Something so sad and so great
Everyone has been hurt by something they thought they would have
Have forever
But instead it was replaced
Replaced with a scar
Sacrs
Break hurt torment
Scars
On the heart and soul forever
Authors Note: I love to write poerty so this is one I wrote and I think most people can realate tell me what you think! Also this is one of my not so good poems heh.... :P
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I'm Thinking About You
I'm thinking about you.
I'm thinking about you like zombies think of flesh. Like monsters think of closets. Like vampires think of blood. I'm thinking about you like math thinks of problems. Like english thinks of grammer. Like history thinks of the past. I'm thinking about you all the time. Like thunder thinks of lightning. Like tears think of rain. I'm thinking about you like happiness thinks of laughter. Like depression thinks of saddness. Like anger thinks of agression. I'm thinking about you like war thinks of peace. Like rainbows think of color. Like dance thinks of parites. I think about you ALOT! I think about you every second of the day. I think about you like nerds thinks of calculators. Like calculators think of math. Like is think math is dumb. I think about you like songs think of lyrics. Like my iPOD thinks of music. Like music thinks of magic. I'm thinking about you like spiders thik of cobwebs. Like Slytherins think of evil. Like Voldemort think of killing Harry Potter. I'm thinking about you right now in my creative writing class. I'm thinking about you in every class. I'm thinking about you in the day. I'm thinking about you in the night. I'm thinking about you like you think of me. I just think about you all the time!
I'm thinking about you like zombies think of flesh. Like monsters think of closets. Like vampires think of blood. I'm thinking about you like math thinks of problems. Like english thinks of grammer. Like history thinks of the past. I'm thinking about you all the time. Like thunder thinks of lightning. Like tears think of rain. I'm thinking about you like happiness thinks of laughter. Like depression thinks of saddness. Like anger thinks of agression. I'm thinking about you like war thinks of peace. Like rainbows think of color. Like dance thinks of parites. I think about you ALOT! I think about you every second of the day. I think about you like nerds thinks of calculators. Like calculators think of math. Like is think math is dumb. I think about you like songs think of lyrics. Like my iPOD thinks of music. Like music thinks of magic. I'm thinking about you like spiders thik of cobwebs. Like Slytherins think of evil. Like Voldemort think of killing Harry Potter. I'm thinking about you right now in my creative writing class. I'm thinking about you in every class. I'm thinking about you in the day. I'm thinking about you in the night. I'm thinking about you like you think of me. I just think about you all the time!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Direct Orders
You are under direct orders to rock the **** out! Rock out like you juse got kissed. Rock out like you just performed on American Idol and the Judges sent you threw to Hollywood. Rock out like you are having a silent dance party! Rock out like you just got told by the person you like that they like you. Rock out like there is no tomorrow. Rock out like no one is watching. Rock out like you just conquerd your biggest fear. Rock out like the person you like just held your hand. Rock out like an old happy grandpa. Rock out like it's the 80's and your hair is big and you are wearing neon colors. Rock out as if your life depended on it cuz the world is ending tomorrow and only you know. Rock out like you are not afraid of anyone or anything especiall your english teacher. Rock out like you are so don't care what others think of you.Rock out like you get to sleep in and you have no early morning classes to go to.Rock out like you just moved out of your parents home after 20 years. Rock out like you have 24 hours to live. Rock out like you are going on the best date ever! Rock out like you will have no more problems, mental, physical, or social. Rock out like you put on your confidence pants. Rock out like no one else matters. Rock out like you have all the money in the world. Rock out like you are a hobo and you have no money and you haven't eaten anything in 3 days and you just found 5 bucks on the street and someone gave you a can of soup. Rock out like you get to hang out with your best friend. Rock out like you just quit your horrible job and you crazy manager begged you to stay. Rock out like you just graduated high school. Rock out like you have never rocked out before. Rock out like music is the only thing that matters. Rock out like you are Ke$ha, Lady GaGa, and Miley Cyrus. Rock out like you have never felt alone and afraid. Rock out like you are always happy. Rock out like you just got a 4.0. Rock out like you never have to worry again. Rock out like you could rock out forever!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
My introduction....
Quiet But Deep. That is kinda sorta maybe who I am. It depends. So anyway.... I chose the penname Ferb Fletcher from the TV show Phineas and Ferb, becasue he is very inpirational. I like inspiration. He is willing to do anyhting even though he is very quiet.
I love writing and when I say that, it is an understatement. I used to hate it but someone showed me it is ok to express your feelings on paper. I am not good at expressing feelings so I do it in my writing. I also write because it gives me sorta like a mask to hide behind. (Now I know that might not be the best thing for me to do, hide behind a mask, but my writing shows how I really feel. It shows what I am really feeling opposed to what people see at school. I try and find inspiration in all things. Whether or not they look like they have inspiration tied to them or not. It is just something I do. BUT, if I ever put a poem on here, don't expect it to rhyme. If I put something on here that is weird to you, I don't care becasue it is what I am really feeling. so yeah :p
On this blog you might also be seeing a side of me that people don't normally see (not that you know who I really am) If you do end up knowing who I am, then whatever... I really don't care. So yeah! A more deeper side a more hidden side, a more depressed side.
So yeah that is my blog!!!! :p
I love writing and when I say that, it is an understatement. I used to hate it but someone showed me it is ok to express your feelings on paper. I am not good at expressing feelings so I do it in my writing. I also write because it gives me sorta like a mask to hide behind. (Now I know that might not be the best thing for me to do, hide behind a mask, but my writing shows how I really feel. It shows what I am really feeling opposed to what people see at school. I try and find inspiration in all things. Whether or not they look like they have inspiration tied to them or not. It is just something I do. BUT, if I ever put a poem on here, don't expect it to rhyme. If I put something on here that is weird to you, I don't care becasue it is what I am really feeling. so yeah :p
On this blog you might also be seeing a side of me that people don't normally see (not that you know who I really am) If you do end up knowing who I am, then whatever... I really don't care. So yeah! A more deeper side a more hidden side, a more depressed side.
So yeah that is my blog!!!! :p
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